What would it be like to be married to two people - one who loves you unconditionally, buys you lots of presents, makes you feel like the most beautiful woman in the world? The other, an angry young man, who finds you repulsive, gets mad for the slightest infraction, throws your stuff out of the balcony window and locks you out of your home. Now imagine, they are both inhabiting the same person. That is what it is like, living with a person who suffers from Bipolar Disorder. How do I know, my husband has this condition.
We've seen doctors, psychologists, name it, we've seen them. Its not easy, seeing the man you love like this. However, after 5 years now together, we decided to seek counselling and see if we can actually make a life together or seperate as friends. I only want what is best for us and our 4 year old son who is confused about all of this but I know he wants what is best for him and us.
Our situation is unique in the sense, we do have a lot of support from our parents and family but at the end of the day, it comes down to the three of us, can we manage? But along with the disorder, comes personality clashes and conflicts and that is never good either. Marriage is hard enough but when you got this battle on your hands, it is made even harder.
This post is not meant for sympathy for me, but for empathy for the many men and women who do have partners who have this condition. There is hope, but one has to be very patient and just have a lot of faith.
More later...
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